This comes as no surprise to many, but I am a large boy. Large in the sense that I have a few unnecessary pounds. Pretty much my entire life (since the age of, let's say, 2) I have always had the constant reminder from my parents to watch what I eat. Every waking moment, and that occasional dream, I always have to think in the terms of calories and carbs. "Is this good, is this bad?" It is kind of disheartening, but now a habit that I have come accustomed to.
The other day I realized, "I have never enjoyed a meal". Now, this can be interpreted in many ways. Believe me, I always enjoy pretty much every morsel of food that enters into my mouth (except corn), but it comes at a cost. I have never enjoyed a meal because in the back of my mind, I have the devil telling me that "another bite can mean another pound!"I would, one day, like to eat a meal and not have to worry about the after effects. Just savor the moment, live in the present.
Recently, I promised my Facebook friends that I would go on the difficult task of losing 80lbs starting this New Year's. Let me tell you, it is hard. The motivation doesn't want to take form. I have lost 9lbs, but I have already plateaued and haven't forced myself to go back to the gym in over a week. I really don't want to give up this time. I MUST do this. I HAVE to do this. I'm becoming an embarrassment.
From the words of The Little Engine that Could, "I think I can, I think I can, I think I can"...
I hear ya man. I'm doin the same thing. Force yourself to go to the gym and get a groove going, then you'll feel weird NOT going and doing your workout for the day (at least, I did). I don't know how you're going about it, but I atkins'd last year and lost 50 pounds in about 3 months, with daily, albeit small, amounts of exercise. I also didn't really count calories. I'm doing both now and its going/I have hopes for it going even better.
ReplyDeleteKeep at it bro, it ain't easy. PS - dint check the scale everyday. You'll feel like you're accomplishing more and wont be as likely to give up if you check less often. It ain't coming off all at once, and you'll notice more weight gone if you do so.
Hi Chris! :) I'm going for 30 pounds this year :/ I was actually told to go to the dietician at school and it was AWESOME. Eating and excising got a lot easier for me at least. It just made everything seem simpler. You should give it a try. Good luck!
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